Wed, 09 Apr 2008 03:07:33 GMT

i hate when my sister's boyfriend brushes his teeth in our bathroom when I'm ready to go to bed and want to brush my teeth. I still love him, but it's annoying.

New journal.

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:31:42 GMT

I kept meaning to get a new username, considering "psychoali" was a name Jeff made up for me back in 7th grade. If anyone was ever curious, the story behind that was that I was a psychic when it came to Jeff's love life, or something along those lines. I don't really remember myself, to be honest. This new journal will symbolize a new me, as my life leaves the high school world and enters into the adult one. I feel like I'm at a sort of turning point in my life with all these decisions I've been making about college, my future career, and life in general, which is why I feel like it's a good idea to create a new journal. I'm going to try to post every day. I know that most likely that won't happen, but I can try. I know I always say that I love reading all of your posts, and it's not fair that I don't post that often myself. So I will try. Not guaranteeing every post will be exciting, but oh well. I always found it hard to post about the guy aspects of my life because while I trust all of you individually, you just never know who has access to who's passwords and who can be reading this at any given time. And with the guy aspects of 11th grade, I just didn't tell anyone anything until pretty much late spring. When college hits, I'll be an open book on here. Anyway, I've pretty much decided on going to Stony Brook for college next year. It breaks my heart. I want to go away, but financially it just makes so much more sense to stay home, especially because of all the traveling I will be doing. My tentative study abroad plan is four weeks in France in the summer of 09, a semester in France either the spring of my sophomore or junior year, and three weeks in Italy in the break between the two semesters of my senior year. For any who don't know, I'll be majoring in French, most likely to become a high school teacher. I've been so contemplative lately. While I wish I could go away, it reassures me slightly that I can visit my friends at their assorted colleges, mooch off their college lifes. That way I can still experience college parties, even though I won't be able to get the full experience. I'm sure it will play out how it's supposed to, and I'll try to make the most of staying home. Stony Brook does have a dorm, so I'm hoping there will be parties and things there anyway. My only real goal in college is to fall in love though. I don't think I will mind missing waking up still drunk in a dorm room full of my college buddies as long as I get to experience real love. The inseperable boyfriend/girlfriend duo that laugh and have fun with each other (but that don't piss others around them off) type love. It scares me that it will be harder for me to meet someone commuting to college. Petrifies me actually. I won't be able to stay up late in the library or lounge or wherever and stumble into the guy I've been waiting for. That was always the way I imaged I would meet my college boyfriend. I wish I could have gone to Iona. I'm afraid I will regret this decision for the rest of my life. Hopefully the traveling will be worth it, and hopefully I'm able to make friends even at Stony Brook. It will undoubtedly be harder though. I'll quit TCBY when classes start up. I'll get a feel for the school workload and really make myself social at school before I get another job. I'll be 18 by then and I'll probably try to get a job at the hospital or at a restaurant, to make a bit more money than $7 an hour. I'm incredibly excited to see what the future holds, and I'm going to try to make the best out of my life. I want to live a fun life.

All future posts will most likely be locked, but I'm open to adding anyone who asks me to. Add me back if you wish.

ali9485

New journal.